What I think is safe to consider the most emotional week of the school year has begun. All of the ‘lasts’ are happening, time is being spent thinking about what’s changed since last fall, and about what will be different next fall. The fact that I’m as sad as I am about this year ending is just showing me how ridiculously blessed I’ve been this year. Between my leadership team, prayer group, friends, classmates, and spiritual leaders, I have been surrounded by individuals who are absolutely incredible.
Letting go of all this is hard. As much as I’ve been challenged, I’m comfortable where I am. I don’t want things to change. I hate the thought of no longer living on the same hall as spiritual mentors whose hall I’ve been on for two years. I don’t want to stop having accountabilities with an incredible role model who has truly discipled me this year. The thought of not seeing some of my best friends on the hall every day honestly stinks. And yet, to some degree it’s still kind of exciting to look at next year. At this point I honestly don’t know what it will look like, and the thought of going to a new leadership position, a new part of campus, with a new group of girls, and having a new roommate is honestly kind of scary. But knowing that the Lord doesn’t change one bit, and knowing that I’m going to have to trust Him in a whole new way, is exciting.
Father, please guide my every step. Help me not try to trust in my own limited, unwise thoughts. Take control of every circumstance right now. Place me where you want me, Lord. Use me as You will.
“You will keep in perfect peace the mind that is dependent on You, for it is trusting in You” -Isaiah 26:3
